Guilty: Part 1

About four weeks ago I loaded my family up in the van and we headed to Costco to pick up some groceries and other sundries. We weren’t but a few blocks from the house when I saw out of the corner of my eye a police car that we had just passed by, whip around and position himself behind us with his lights flashing. I immediately pulled over to the curb and knew already what was going on. I announced to the family, that I was speeding.

The officer confirmed my suspicion at my window and informed me that I was going ten miles per hour over the posted speed limit. He asked for my license and proof of insurance which I had ready to hand to him. As he was walking back to his car, he stopped and returned to my window and asked me if the address on my driver’s license was correct. It wasn’t. I know you’re supposed to get the address changed within 30 days of it changing but I never thought it was a big deal. Now I was going to get two tickets at once. I wasn’t excited about this at all.

I haven’t had a ticket in over ten years, probably close to 12 years if memory serves, so I was none too excited about  the prospect of tarnishing my nice clean record. A bigger issue for me, however, was the reality that getting a speeding ticket was going to take away the ability for me to drive our church vehicles which I do on a semi regular basis. This would have been very inconvenient for my work and my coworkers as well. Something that I would have formerly been able to take care of myself, I would now have to rely on others to do for me because of my own foolishness.

The officer came back to my window and handed back my license and insurance information and began to explain to me that it is against the law to have the wrong address on your driver’s license. Then came the best news. He wasn’t giving me a ticket for speeding, just for the inaccurate driver’s license, because, he said, “It’s cheaper that way”. This was great. So with not getting the speeding ticket I expected, I was still going to be able to drive the church vans, plus the ticket I did get was going to be cheaper than the speeding ticket would have been. We praised God on the spot for his grace, as well as the grace poured out toward me from the police officer. The officer looked in at my kids in the van and then at me and said, “You should know better.” He was right. I did know better, I wasn’t paying attention and I should have been.

With a renewed sense of the fear of God (and policemen) in my heart we drove very carefully on our way to Costco. I decided that I was going to have the family present for the entirety of the experience since they were with me at the start of it. I think it’s very important to grab onto teachable moments like this, and its easy to let civic duty and embarrassing situations get swept under the rug.

We like to hide sin. John 3:19-21 explains this. When I love sin, I live in it. God is too great, and his grace too amazing to dwell in the darkness. I love him and so I run to the light when confronted with sin. My sin this day was not obeying the law of the land, and I was being held accountable to it. So, the question for myself became, “How do I glorify God in this situation?” The answer was simple. “Show my family that God is greater than my pride, he’s triumphed over my sin, and he is a just God. My actions have consequences and I’m willing to face them.”

The next week, we went in and got our driver’s license information updated where Paula found out that her driver’s license hasn’t been updated for two moves! We then we all went to the county Traffic Division to pay my fine. As the County Clerk was handing me the paper work to sign she began explaining to me what it was I was doing in signing. I was pleading guilty to the charge listed on the citation, and would be agreeing to pay the fine of $100. This was good news, because the officer only gave me one ticket, meant it meant I only had one fine to pay, and the fine for the driver’s license was cheaper than the speeding ticket, though only by $20, mind you. I was about to sign my guilty plea when the County Clerk informed me that I was pleading guilty to a misdemeanor crime. A speeding ticket is a petty misdemeanor and carries with it no criminal record, but a full misdemeanor, however, does carry a record with it. If I signed this paper I would be obligated to tell the world from here on out, I am a criminal. Specifically, any job application I ever filled out I would have to say, that yes, I have been found guilty of a crime.

I didn’t like this idea. So I didn’t sign.

To be continued…

 

Free

At our home, we’ve been on a debt crushing vendetta. When you enter college, the government requires that you take a short course on school loan payback. The idea is to remind you that the money you’re borrowing to attend school actually comes from somewhere and has to be paid back. I knew the time was coming, but I wasn’t aware that it would impact my heart so much. Regardless, now that we are working to pay it all back as quickly as possible, our budget has a new appreciation for cheap and free items. Continue reading

Change

1 Peter 2:13-25

Maybe you’re in a job situation where you boss doesn’t treat his employes as they should be treated, how do you handle that? How do you feel about subjecting yourself to a president that approves of killing babies before they have their chance at birth, or worse yet, what about a situation like exists in many places in our world today where the government powers that be, seek to kill Christians for the very things they believe. Peter gives some direction for us, even in our own situation that isn’t as drastic as that.

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Trapped

From the archives:

Even with the best of intentions it is so easy to wind up someplace that you never intended to go.  A wrong turn, missing an exit, bad directions, or just poor planning often lead us to places we never wanted to be.  My son Joel, when he was a toddler was spending one day as he normally did, exploring every corner of our house. As he was wandering around he found a cabinet door in the kitchen that he was able to open. What he discovered behind it was more exciting than he imagined. An empty shelf that disappeared beyond his vision. For little Joel, it was an unexplored cavern ripe with possibilities and adventure. Sometimes we see things that catch our attention like that. What we don’t expect is to get stuck, or trapped in a mess of our own making. We work and stress, trying to escape our circumstance but are often unable to save ourselves. That’s when we have to cry our for help. That’s what Joel ended up having to do too. Paula heard his cry and rescued him from his self created snare. Perhaps, you’re like little Joel, just exploring around, wanting to see what is around that next corner, only to find yourself stuck, alone, in the dark, crying for help. I think we are all like that sometimes.  We take a wrong turn and realize before we know what happened that we aren’t where we ought to be, and we cry out to our Father in heaven.  Sometimes we often forget is that He had His eyes on us all along, and has been reaching for us the whole time.

Psalm 40:2

 

Vows

What makes me a good husband? Public perception? The right deeds? Keeping vows? Jesus said that even sinful thought is as bad as committing the deed. Can a bad wife have a good husband? Can a good husband have a bad wife? Being a good husband is not good enough.  The world’s standards are not God’s, and no matter how many people of the world count me as a good husband, my wife included, their measure is not the one I need to live up to, but that of God.  I want to glorify God in my role as a husband.  In order for my wife to be the best wife she can be, I need to be the best husband I can be. Continue reading

Seduction

Cheap Trick wrote a song in 1977 that was released originally on their album “In Color“. Lead guitarist and writer Rick Nielsen penned the words for  ”I Want You To Want Me“ which initially didn’t get very good reviews from the critics. Though it didn’t do well on its first plays, it did reveal an incredible desire that lives inside everyone in the world. The desire to be loved.

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Arms

Its handy having long arms. I’m 6’2″ and my arms are decently long. I’m able to reach those high places in the kitchen where Polly has stashed some seldom used gadget. I imagine myself reaching for it and handing it down to her the way Wesley did for Buttercup in The Princess Bride. “As you wish.” But is seems long arms aren’t enough to be able to reach the most important places sometimes. Continue reading

Grief

Grieving can be painful. Emotions get confused. Sadness can turn into irritability, or physical illness, and it just doesn’t make much sense.

We have a family friend who is dying. Slowly. She has a form of cancer, and it is taking her life from her. I say that in a blaming way on purpose. It’s not her fault she’s dying, she hasn’t physically done anything to herself that will take her life from her, but none the less, her vaporous life is passing. Continue reading